The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others. I can truly say I have found myself through my sisters.
Have you ever lived in a house with three pregnant girls? I must say it is a challenge. At the time I was staying with my mom and 3 of my siblings were pregnant. It was hard dealing with their hormones and cravings. Not only was that hard it was also hard getting them to their doctor‘s appointment because they didn’t have transportation so I had to take them. I work at the waffle house where I am a waitress. I work 10 hour shifts 9:00pm to 7:00am. I am also a full time college student where I am trying to graduate with my AA degree this semester fall 2015. So it is very hard trying to work around my schedule to make sure that each of them make every appointment. When they make appointments I thought that it would be nice if they could all schedule their appointments on one day. That way I would only miss class or work one day to take all of them instead of having to take 3 days off in one week just to make sure they all make their appointment. But of course they don’t think like that. I don’t even think thought about the stress they were putting me through. My mom also help a lot with them but it is only so much she can do. My mom work at home doing hair so she don’t have a dependable check coming in every week or other two weeks. She just have to depend on her customers to come to her and make appointments. So it is pretty hard for her to try to pay all the bills in the house and also take care of them.
I have moved out into my own place so I do have my own bills to pay and I also have to still help out with them. I don’t know how I manage to get it all done but I do. When people hear about my situation they always ask me why do I help them? Or they ask why do I stress myself out to make sure they okay? I completely understand why everyone feel the way they do I understand why people ask me these questions. Honestly I do it because I love them. I also do it because there are innocent young kids involved. They didn’t ask to be in this world. So if I am asked to buy diapers, clothes, and shoes for them because they mothers don’t have it I will.
I do stress out about between helping them, being a full time college student, and going to work full time. I also push myself hard so my sisters can see all my accomplishments so it can motive them to get back on track and to do the right things. I just want them to know just because they are now mothers they shouldn’t quit on their dream. Not only should I be a motivation but their kids should really be a motivation for them. I just want what is right for my family. I am a 21 years old I am halfway through college, I have my own apartment, I just paid off my first car, I have a job that is well enough for now, and I don’t have any kids so I am happy. I’m not leading the best life but I’m happy with it. I just want my sisters to be the same way. I want them to know how it feels to accomplish things. Once they get that feeling nothing will be able to stop them. I love my family and just want what is best for them.
